Wednesday (night)

Many of my friends and family are confused about my near-addiction to the MTV show The Hills.  But I like it because it is shot really beautifully.  The shots of L.A. combined with the music are really pretty.  And I guess more than anything I am jealous of these girls’ lives.  Even though their dialogue is often stilted and they aren’t the smartest people in the world, they have fun, exciting lives.  They have amazing jobs (of course, they would probably have not been able to land them without being on the cast of a popular tv show) in fashion, music, and events.  They have lots of money and great clothes.  Their apartments are beautiful and they have a cool group of friends.  The drama is often over the top, but overall, they seem to have a good time.

Meanwhile, I’m going to college in the middle of nowhere, unsure of exactly what I want to pursue or if I will be able to get a good job once I graduate.  The winter is like hell and I’m lacking in clothes I love.  I haven’t had my own apartment (except once with girls I hated) and some of my friends leave something to be desired.

My life pales in comparison.  On the brighter side, I will come out of college with a degree and a strong desire to improve some aspects of my life.

But doesn’t it suck that when I graduate at 22, I will be striving for what these girls had at 19?  It just seems so unfair sometimes.  But I guess it’s not helpful to wallow in what you don’t have.

Em