Monday (night)

I am starting to get in the Christmas spirit!  After being really scrooge-like and “over” it for the the first part of the season, now I am finally close enough to being done that I can start to relax.

However.  Before I can fully get into the spirit I still have to get through the next 2 days.  Tomorrow I have a meeting, newspaper lunch, another meeting, and studying for a final Wednesday.  And I should start to pack, especially since I also have to pack for vaca.

Then Wednesday I go to a final session from 2-4 and take a final from 4:15-6:15.  Then I try to pack up and leave as quickly as I can so I can get home at a reasonable-ish hour.  Because of course I want to see D as soon as I get in .

And then a couple days to do Christmas shopping (and laundry), then to the grandparents’, then back home for my birthday and Christmas.  I plan to basically be drinking champagne for several days straight .. mmm bubbly.  After Christmas, Florida.  And after Florida, one more week with D before I have to head back here.  I am sooo excited for the holidays.  I am so used to my birthday being tied in with Christmas that I am getting close to accepting it.  At least everyone’s in a cheery mood already (or a pissy one from having to shop so much, haha), off school, and ready to celebrate.

Speaking of shopping, I haven’t done any yet.  I have some ideas about what to get D and I’m just now starting to come up with some for the fam.  I plan to cram it into a couple of days like usual .. we’ll see how that goes.  Plus I want to fit in a little for myself for new winter stuff and vacation .  There’s the real Christmas spirit, eh?

I am listening to a Christmas station on Pandora right now, it’s pretty good.  Ok well it’s almost 2 and I should get up reasonably early to complete and submit a self-evaluation.

Oh, I have been getting so into Gossip Girl over the last few days.  I’ve watched 6 episodes in like 2 days .. sad, especially since I had a final today, haha.  See how busy I am?  I am so glad I’m not one of those people with 2000 papers to write before they can go home.

Cheers!

Em

Wednesday

The next couple of weeks are going to be crazy, so I’m trying to get it together now.  Isn’t it sad that I only try to be organized when I have to be?

I have so far made several lists of everything I want to accomplish this week, and have just started actually accomplishing it.  (I’m a big list-maker.)  Today I went to the grocery and CVS to get some necessities, like cereal, milk, contact solution, shampoo, conditioner .. you know the drill.  Then I finally cleaned out my fridge.  You’d think since it’s a mini-fridge this would be no big feat, but like many “difficult-to-accomplish” tasks, it’s all in your head.  It’s just something hard to sit down and do because it seems so unpleasant.  But anyway, so I basically ended up throwing away a lot of stuff that should have been thrown away September/October.  It’s so hard buying food because I either eat it right away or forget about it, or can’t eat it all before it expires because I’m just one person (e.g. bread).  Anyway, then I straightened up my room a little (clothes, shoes, made my bed), but I haven’t yet attacked the piles and other problem areas.  I’m a pile-maker.  I just set papers and books and folders in piles and don’t want to deal with their contents.  Even though I am still a little messy, I am working on it, and am a LOT better than my freshman year.  I happened across a couple pictures of the room the other day and it was pretty bad.  I mean, I still see traces of that old me, for sure.  But at least I can access my bed and desk without almost killing myself, haha.

Anyway, next up is to start my journal for class that’s due Friday.  It’s 10 pages and I want to get half or so done today so I can focus tomorrow on studying for my psych exam that’s also on Friday.  Today I also went to class and convo, which was pretty interesting.  And tonight I have to do my volunteer thing at the hospital, and then I have dance and want to walk/run.

Oh, and last night I watched the premiere episode of the Rachel Zoe project.  Really interesting show – gets me more into style/fashion and also makes me want to keep my space clean!  She seems really cool, too – definitely fresh, as they say.  Oh tv world, sometimes I miss you so ..

Back to work!

Em

Monday

Sorry I’ve been going crazy with the posting today.

~ My heater isn’t really working in my room, and it’s freezing outside.

~ I haven’t unpacked and I’ve been back for over 24 hours.  There is no excuse.

~ The Hills is the best worst show ever.  ‘Nuff said.

~ I had dance today and after that I went running.  My face unfortunately gets really red when I run so I look like a tomato.  I am trying to get in shape for my trip over break!

~ I have been less productive with homework today than anticipated.  But some things are moved to next week, which means this week will be less crazy.

~ I’m having trouble finding someone to go with me to a campus event this week.  People are busy, lame.

~ D. really hurt his back today and doesn’t know why.

~ Still can’t effing wait for break.  Can’t come a day too soon …

Em

Monday

It is officially winter.  {Well, official by my guidelines, at least.  Haha.}  It has been precipitating for over a day, and it’s not rainin’.  Ugh.  I detest snow (except if I can ski in it).  I think that makes me a bad midwesterner, oh well.

I can’t wait to hit up sunny FL over winter break.  Only 2.5 weeks and I am free for almost an entire month.  But they are sure to be the longest weeks EVER.  {I know, I know, I do say that every year.  But this is the worst time of the semester.}  I have papers, presentations, projects, tests, out the wazoo.  To sum up this week I have an exam, a presentation, a journal, and possibly a paper due.  Next week I have a paper, a huge project, another presentation, and a big dance performance.  Plus I have the usual homework and extracurricular stuff.  Hey, at least I got an A- on my lab write-up .  Oh, and then I have 2 finals.

But then it’s my birthday, Christmas, FL, New Year’s, and so many other good things!  I have to have something to look forward to to get me through this time ..

Wish me luck on the final semester crunch!

Em

Monday

Last night, I was on IM with a friend and I was stressing.  I was stressing about school, my family, how so many people are going to be gone next semester, and how things are always changing.

And it’s so true.  It seems like things get more, not less, complicated as you get older.  Throughout high school my relationship with my family and friends was pretty straightforward.  I would dish to my mom about my friends and crushes, and she would fill me in on some things but leave out the big dramas.  Even when there were some issues between people, I always knew who my friends were.  It was easy – they were the girls I’d known since I was 11.

But then high school graduation struck.  For awhile, things were sort of the same with people from home.  But then you change, they change, and you don’t change together.  These distances and differences have only increased with time.  To most of my high school friends, I am still 15, and always will be – and vice versa.  It is really hard to grow that kind of relationship, especially when it was based off of being immature and in middle/high school.  Talking about serious relationships and drinking can sometimes feel just .. wrong.  And take college friendships.  You are only going to know these people for 4 years max, whereas you’ve known your other friends for forever.  These relationships tend to be more casual and change pretty quickly – which can be hard for someone like me to take.  And then the familial relationship also changes.  Your parents share more, and you share less, and it all just gets complicated.  Some parents still see your 10 year old self while others want to become your BFF.  I would like to maintain the parent-child relationship, but it is becoming harder to see what that means and where the lines are.  In high school, you are still the kid, and your parents are still the powerful authority figures.  It is so hard to see anyone of authority in my family (parents, grandparents, etc) show weakness because that is not who they represent to me.  They have always been the ones who have it together, and it is very jarring to realize that may not entirely be the case.

Things will only get more complicated as I get older I’m sure.

Em