Wednesday (night)

Home again, home again.  It’s fall break again this year and this year it’s weirder than ever.  I’m not one of those people who dreads going home – in fact, I love it.  But it’s weird to think that I might never really live at my home again.  This summer I will hopefully be interning somewhere not in my hometown, and after I graduate I will presumably get a job and live on my own.  Of course, I still have 2 month-long winter breaks left where I will be here for a fairly extended period of time.  But no more lazy summers with a part-time job (or internship), D, and no cares and no real responsibilities.  It’s sad that I can’t truly appreciate those summers until they’re over.  Of course I really enjoyed them at the time, but now that they’re gone, it’s like there’s a part of me missing.  I’m never going to live at my house again.  Where I lived for the majority of the formative years of my life.  Is this supposed to be more of a natural progression for people?  Maybe I should wish my home was worse so that I wouldn’t want to come back.  But it just represents so many good things to me – familiarity, comfort, family, friends, to name a few.  So many good times in my life were had here.  It’s scary to think about striking out on a life all on my own.  Or one completely separate from my immediate family.  I don’t know if I’m ready to enter that adult world yet, but I don’t feel like I have much choice.

Other than being prematurely freaked out about my post-college years, break has been going really well.  I had two exams this morning and then immediately left to take my friend E to the airport.  That was really stressful because we missed the exit and then had to try again 3 times … long story.  But we got there and she still had an hour before the flight … thank god, I would have felt so bad if she had missed it on my watch.  Then I stopped for lunch and continued on my way home.  When I got here, I talked to my mom for a long time and then my dad.  Later I went to my brother’s concert and then out to dinner.  After that I watched a minute of Stylista and then picked up D to get coffee.  We hung out in his dorm for awhile and watched a little of a movie.

Tomorrow I have lunch with my friend N and 12 and my mom wants to do early voting.  I desperately need to do laundry and I should straighten up my room – D and I kind of destroyed it this summer in our epic cleaning spree.  Then tomorrow night I’m going out to eat with D and then watching the Office at his dorm with his friends.  Should be a good time .. I just know this brief break will fly by.

Em