Thursday

Sorry, I’m really into Feist right now, haha.

~ Last night I dreamt of horses. I also didn’t sleep very well. I feel like they might come back into my life someday, but not now. It’s weird that they are subconsciously on my mind like that.

~ I watched Gossip Girl today – the latest one – and I really enjoyed it .. well, all except for the catfight. Not so into those. But I think I’ll start trying to watch regularly.

~ I’m thinking about signing up for a counseling session at school. My main problems are worrying about the future (internships, jobs, what I want to do with my life) and worrying about my social life (namely, how I don’t have many good friends here). I don’t have some of the typical worries of people my age – worrying about finding a boyfriend/girlfriend or drama with the opposite gender, family problems, school issues. But I do have some major concerns and I think talking to someone other than a friend about it could be a good idea. Anyone I would choose to talk from my life about problems I’m having would obviously be a concerned and active listener. But the problem is everyone my age is just so damn busy and I feel bad just rambling about my issues, or they have already heard about them and don’t have much else to say. It’s hard to justify just talking about yourself for a long period of time to a friend when they have a lot of problems too.

~ The worst part of my week is over. Today I am scheduled practically constantly for the rest of the day, but I don’t really have anything to turn in as far as homework for the rest of the week.

~ My mom and aunt are coming to watch me dance on Saturday! I’m really excited. I still don’t know if I’m going to the homecoming dance that night. The people I hang out with probably aren’t going so that makes it a little more complicated.

~ I got out of my obligation on Saturday morning so I can go to the suicide prevention walk.

~ I have some dinner tonight that I have to go to. I was going to go with my friend I. but then he realized he had double-booked himself. So now I’m going to a dinner full of alumni and I don’t necessarily know anyone. Great :/.

~ I absolutely cannot wait until next Wednesday afternoon. It’s break at my school from Thursday-Sunday so I get to go home .

Em