Thursday

But at least it’s almost over.  I arrived back at school on Sunday night after not doing any work this weekend because I was with D.  I got back at 8 and immediately went to a dance practice.  After that I was basically unmotivated for the beginning of this week to really do any work.  When I received my bad test grade on Tuesday night, I got pumped up to do a lot better, but all of Wednesday was taken up by class, homework due that day, talking on the phone, writing for the paper, working on my group psych project that is a weekly thing, and dance practice.  I didn’t really have any time yesterday to actually get ahead in anything.  Today I had yoga in the morning, a nap, and class in the afternoon.  I guess I could have been productive instead of napping, but I just feel so much less exhausted with that extra sleep, and I had class at 8:30 – soo early.  So then this afternoon I come to find out that I cannot sign up to do my oral presentation in my philosophy class.  Cannot.  Because we all have to complete one presentation by October 21, and all the slots were filled.  Oh, except one.  Which we all ran to try to get after class, but I was basically tied with another girl, so we filled a coin for it and she won.  I’m ok with her getting the spot, it just really sucks that the professor won’t try to accommodate any of us who didn’t sign up in time.  His tune is “I kept saying the list was up and you knew you had to do one by this date”.  Well, yeah, but I feel like it is his responsibility to say something when no one is signing up – something like, “You guys only have a few more weeks and only 2 people can go per day, the slots are running low!”.  That would have been incredibly helpful and then maybe the whole class, instead of only half, would be able to do their presentations.  He was really an asshole when a few of us went up after class, completely unwilling to budge or have more people per day present or anything.  I almost cried after because I was pretty upset, but I realized it just wasn’t worth it.  (Not that I don’t cry ever, but I am proud that I’ve stopped crying over specific instances of people not being nice.  And that I don’t define myself by school.)

It just pisses me off.  On top of all school-related stuff, I also have been kind of sick since I got here – runny nose, average of two sneezes per class, that kind of thing.  Up until Tuesday night, for the last couple weeks I have been pretty unhappy here and was not working very hard.  Half the time I just want to drop out because I am really over all this school bullshit.  I just want to have a life where I am my own boss.  So there goes the corporate world …

Tomorrow is Friday and I can’t fucking wait.  I’m driving to a nearby city to meet my mom to go shopping.  It kind of stems from feeling guilty about only seeing her twice last weekend, but more than that I really want to catch up with her, in a way we can’t do when more people are around.  And I do need fall/winter clothes.

Tonight I want to start writing one of the papers for that class.  Also, the VP debates are tonight … but unfortunately I have dance practice at the same time.

I hope things improve … next week is bound to be better.  Right?

Em