Sunday

I have gotten really apathetic about everything over the last week or so.  Not in a depressed, oh-I-am-so-lonely-and-hate-this-school sort of way, but more just generally blah about everything.  I do homework that I have to turn in, but I don’t really do my reading.  I guess by “apathetic about everything” I actually mean “apathetic about school”.  Oh, and being business manager.  I did get kind of intense about internships for a couple days, but even that faded after I realized I don’t really know what I want to go for.

So basically I’m just coasting for the weekends now.  Not that they are anything great.  But next weekend I’m going to see D again, so I am excited about that.  The problem is that I really don’t like a couple of my classes and think they’re useless busywork.  The psychology ones and usually my philosophy one, I can get behind.  But especially one of my business classes is just tedious.  My professor sits there and drones on and on, and I just want her to fucking teach us something.  She has all these degrees and supposedly something useful to say, but it’s so boring and pointless and awful.  If I hate the class, I’m not likely to do the readings.  And I don’t like that my homework is mostly all reading.  I miss doing math and really working my brain.  (Not that it was always a joyous experience, but overall it improved my character I think.)  But reading just gets monotonous.  And I’m putting off and putting off papers I need to write.  Arghhh.

So I am going to make some resolutions for this semester.  Even though we’re about a month in.

- Get involved with activities on campus

- Do the reading you have to do and get all homework done on time

- Try to find main themes and things to learn in each class – try to make it relevant to your life

- Eat somewhat healthily and exercise 3-4 days a week

- Don’t stress out about friendships

- Don’t stress out too much about the future but do work on internship search

I don’t really know.  That was kind of a lame recommitment list.  Maybe it will improve later.  What I really love to do is dance, read for fun, hang out, and play on my computer.  I don’t think these are passions but rather methods of procrastination.  Hmmm.

When will next weekend be here???

Em