Wednesday (night)

I can’t believe it’s only a few more short days until I go back to school.  D. and I spent a good portion of today (since noon, excluding the couple hours we spent seeing Pineapple Express) and Monday cleaning my room.  I was going to do it on my own, but as usual, I am really nostalgic and bad at throwing things away.  My cleaning stamina is about zero.  Which means my room has only accumulated crap since we moved here when I was 11.  It’s hard to watch some of it go, but overall I know it’s for the best.  And I am keeping the things that are truly meaningful to me.  Getting rid of a ton of stuff will allow me to actually cherish the things I care about, instead of having a lot of nostalgic-inducing things stored in a box somewhere.  And a lot of it is truly just crap, not even really worth saving.  We threw away a ton of nail polish and perfume that was from my pre-teen years.  There is stuff that dates back to the late nineties, so it had to have made the move from my old house.  As D. says, the room should show my personality, and right now it doesn’t.

But even after we get through the bulk of the room, we still have to tackle the closet.  And the decorations, most likely.  The trillion horse ribbons on the walls really should go, but I don’t know if I can bear to through them away.  And all the old school stuff.  It’s stuff I never look at but like to know that I have.  Like sometimes I remember how I threw all of my junior year school stuff away and it’s just like, what if there was something in there I actually cared about?  Oh well, it’s in the past.

I lost my camera a few days ago and I still can’t find it.  It’s really frustrating because we’ve been through the majority of my room, and it still hasn’t turned up.  People keep saying it will show up, and it probably will eventually, but I need a camera before I head back to school.  Which is Sunday.  So I guess if I don’t find it before then I’ll just buy a new one?  Ugh, that thought pains me.  Having lost it just makes me feel bad, especially when I feel like I’ve looked everywhere and have no idea where it could be.

So back to school is becoming a reality.  I’ve spent most of the last three days with D, but I know that soon I’ll need to buckle down and focus on my own packing efforts.  Tomorrow I’m doing laundry and I’m going to help him pack.  Maybe that will give me a better idea of what I need to bring.  I’m so excited to not have to be packing for a plane!

I finally heard from my roommate, which is reassuring.  It sounds like the room is nice and roomy and everything.  My advisor is another story.  She hardly ever returns my emails.  I know this is a busy time of year and I’m kind of anal about school things and keeping things in order, but I really need to meet with her when I get back on campus.  I had to plan my own schedule last semester because I was away, and I want to know that I can graduate in four years with two majors.  If she sits me down and tells me now that I can’t, I’m going to be majorly pissed.  I’m thinking of just changing to another guy in the department.  I don’t want to hurt my advisor’s feelings but if she’s not dependable, it’s really not fair to me.

Tomorrow D. and I are going on a double date with a couple of our friends.  It should be fun.  Then on Friday I’m having coffee with my friend M. and we’re going over to our friend N’s house.  Saturday is probably going to be focused on packing.  I had no idea summer, especially this week, would fly by so quickly.  But I guess that’s how it goes, eh?

Em