Thursday

Scratch that last entry. It was boring and not about what I want to write about … my dreams.

A lot of times I am afraid to admit my goals and dreams because I’m worried they won’t happen. Also, in the community where I grew up (not my family, my community – old friends, etc), what I want isn’t acceptable.

I want to become a movie or tv producer. I want to move to California. There, I said it.

I have also seriously considered going into business, but I think if I am being completely honest with myself I want a career in entertainment.

I just worry a lot because it’s really competitive and I don’t have an entertainment background. My majors are business and psychology, for god’s sake. Also, I’m scared to move so far away from everything I know. But I know that if I let fear hold me back I’ll always regret it. So after I graduate I do hope to move far, far away from the midwest.

I need warm weather. I need beaches. I need a way to combine my business and entertainment interests and skills to make a career, and I think producing is a great way to do that. But who doesn’t want to be in entertainment? How do you break in? AHHH.

Ok, I’m going to sleep soon. For real.

<3 Em.