Saturday

So remember how my friend S was going to come visit me this weekend?  Turns out he didn’t have the money to afford rent and gas, soo he sadly couldn’t make it.  So I decided to go visit him instead!

The trip was a lot of fun.  I went down on Friday after work … it was very spontaneous of me haha.  I kind of wanted to surprise him, but both my mom and D thought that would be a bad idea.  So I let him know and he was very excited.  Last night, we met up with a couple of our other friends and had drinks – yes, many drinks – and pizza.  My friend A made the pizza, but he took forever to make it and it was way too greasy and cheesy.  After eating pizza I felt really nauseous, and it was definitely not from the alcoholic beverages I had consumed.  Although those probably didn’t help.  They have a really cute dog.  I don’t remember specifics of a lot of the conversations, but at one point A and S got into an argument about politics or something.  It’s really fun to just be around people you know well but haven’t gotten to hang out with in a really long time.  A and K and I are friends from last year, but I haven’t hung out with them at all this year.  At one point, A made me feel really guilty because he said I had told him I would call them.  Whoops.  It was probably one of those “I’ll call you guys and we’ll set something up!” things that are always well-intentioned but usually don’t happen.  I wanted S to set something up all of first semester, but he never did.  So now, as I’m rekindling that friendship, they are moving away.  Le sigh.  And S and I are as close as ever, and he’s moving, too.  Sadness … but I’m sure he’ll be much happier where he’s going.  And if he’s not, there’s not a whole lot keeping him there.  Somehow I think our paths will cross again in the future.  While I am sad he is leaving, I am confident our friendship will remain strong.

Today we went out for “breakfast” at around 1.  Haha, I think noon is my ideal wake-up time.  We went to this little diner by my school – it’s kind of sketchy but has yummy breakfast food.  After that we watched a couple episodes of the OC (loooove).  Then we went to WalMart and wandered around – Guitar Hero 3 costs $90 with a wireless guitar, that’s crazy!  We headed back to his place and then to campus to see if we could bother our friend J.  We found his dorm room and left him a note because he wasn’t in.  On our way out we ran into him and we talked for awhile.

J is someone I had a pretty big crush on later last year.  I have gained a lot of perspective in the time that has elapsed, and when I talk to him now, I just realize how it could have never worked out with him.  He’s way too much in his hippie mumbo-jumbo pseudo-psychology talk.  He thinks he has it all figured out, and yet his life just never seems to be very ideal.  Talking to him isn’t really a conversation – it’s him espousing his so-called wisdom.  He is always enduring drama and doesn’t see that he brings it upon himself.  His relationship kind of recently fell apart – I am sorry about that because he seemed really happy with it first semester of this year.  He was talking about how it didn’t work out because he couldn’t fix her problems.  But when you love someone, isn’t it your responsibility to try?  Also, he said that it wasn’t his responsibility to help anymore, because they are no longer together.  But you don’t stop loving someone just because you break up.

It’s interesting to see how perspective on things changes as life unfolds.

After we finished talking to J, it was after 5 and S had to get ready for his aunt to arrive.  I said a pretty hasty yet heartfelt good-bye.  It’s a little disconcerting to not know when I am going to see him next.  I drove the two hours home, and then ran almost 2 miles, ate dinner, showered, and am now waiting for D to get his ass ready so we can watch 21 Grams.

I’m leaving for France for 2 weeks next Saturday so I really need to get my shit together soon.  Also, I have my orientation at the Humane Society tomorrow at 12.

Besos!

Em